The Ambiguous Case

I give up.

I made a new friend last night. And he’s really really nice. And he was actually excited about me. There’s a first. But I’m scared, because I really really want Christiaan. And I don’t want anything to mess it up. Ugh, I’m confused.

Made any effort to talk to me today.

Not one person.

I can’t get him off my mind. He is absolutely perfect.

The problem? He doesn’t seem to want me back.

I really don’t know what to do. When I was with him, it was like magic. And he seemed to like me. I mean, he was the one who put his arm around me and held my hand and let me wear his sweatshirt and all that jazz. But when I text him he doesn’t seem too happy to talk to me. When I say I miss you he doesn’t say it back. When I ask him to call me, he’s always too busy.

What did I do wrong?

I’m coming back to him with presents and drawings for him.

I asked him to learn a song for me. And then when I asked him if he learned it yet, he was like, “What song?”

Clearly, I’m not on his mind.

Fuck.

I hope I will enjoy myself. I generally like sea animals. :]
Btw, I am fed up with everyone. Except Nicholas.

(via blogsecret)

Story of my life. Except everytime I think I love again they end up disappointing me. And I’m sorry that I was the one who disappointed you, Poohbear. I love you more than anything. You’ll always be in my heart.

I really miss nice feelings. People suck lately. For real. I watched some fireworks tonight. It was cute. I did some DDR-ing after minigolfing. I used to beast that ishh. I really hope he calls me tonight. But I know he’s not going to. Because no one really cares. No one puts in any effort into contacting me. That’s fine. Maybe I’ll just take a vacation forevver. No one would miss me apparently.

See yah later tumblrrr. I had a dream about Christiaan last night. I miss him.

that he doesn’t feel the way that I do.

Was awesome. But, for the first part, it was bascially 100 degress. And I was sweating profusely. And then all of a sudden, while me and Andrew were in line for Griffon they were like, OH SORRY WE’RE GONNA CLOSE DOWN ALL THE ROLLERCOASTERS. Because it began to storm. So then we had to sit in this dining hall for like an hour an a half. And it was freezing in there. And then finally they reopened the rides and I got to ride Griffon, which has a 90 degree drop. It was pretty ill. Me and Andrew enjoyed the rides. The rest of my family enjoyed watching us. Haha. And we watched a pet show and an irish dancing show! It was fun. And I miss Nicholas Doherty.